Lost at Last
2002
pssssst you were right that one was bad, sorry. Happy New Year (:
December 28, 2001
Gonna take some time away till the new year. Workin on the boat and visiting friends for the rest of the holidays. 2002 will be a hopefully, pleasant change from 2001, but you never know what life will bring. Gonna spend New Years Eve in Vegas. Have a Happy New Year and be safe.
January 1, 2002
Welcome 2002!!!!
Well it's a New Year, and we made it through the planetary alignment, and a night in Vegas, things are looking up, Lol. It's 62 degrees here today, and although it doesn't seem like winter I'm loving it. Just wanted to say hi and hope you all had the best holidays ever.
January 8, 2002
It feels like summer here today, with the temperature in the 70's. Sorry I don't mean to rub it in. Getting the boat ready and it's really starting to come together. The sad news is that I sold the little car. It's going to a great home, and with someone who will finish it. I got to thinking with the boat behind the bus I'll be 60' long and that's long enough for me. I'm thinking of getting a motorcycle that will mount to the boat trailer. I'll keep you all posted. That's it for today.
January 10, 2002
Ok, we take what life throws at us, and smile. Things change here faster than the weather, but you can always count on a change. I'm not really happy with this situation anymore and there is something I really want to do. A life change thing, and a big one. Ok so I have a Motor Home and a boat but no car, I can live with that. So anyways, this is life here, and to my friends, you are the best, and too the rest of you, naaaaa, never mind, it's not worth it.
January 20, 2002
Well That Harley isn't going to happen. Can't insure it and no one will give a loan on a 68 bike. Oh well back to the drawing board, I'm gonna keep looking. I've decided that I'm not going to be shy in here anymore. I removed Eviction (the short film) because I was told to by the company I work for. It seems that they are a bit too narrow minded to see the humor. A funny point is, this job is constant humor. I'm not going to pretend to be happy here for their sake. Personal abuse is the way and I won't tolerate it. I spent 20 years with that and who needs it. Soooo, LOL, lookin' at my options out there, and well, the boat, it can float on better lakes than this. That brings me to a neat quote.
"Oh God, my boat is so small, and the ocean is so great."
Tonight I'm thinking of the tears of reality and the joy of dreams. Just a tender balance we all live in. And that's good.
February 2, 2002
So, I woke up this morning ready to start my week, and went to work. I was informed that I was available for a transfer to another Department. In other words I have been fired. I can work in houseboats and we had a very nice party tonight, and I felt comfortable with the whole situation. I've been here for 5 months, and I wonder if I've been here to long. I'll give it one last try, for the fun of it, but I think this place is done.
Ya know all in all I have had a good year. Susan has been gone a year now and I think that is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I wish it had happened 15 years ago, but that isn't the case. Woman Vanished, that would make a good movie, but I'm not Bruce Willis and she's not , well what ever. So, as a new chapter unfolds, I'm good with it. Watch for an upcoming road trip soon, and it's time I got of my ass and have some fun. I'm not sick of single life, I'm sick of being married, to a lazy, missing wife. Stop writing hot checks and file for a divorce. You walked out and you should pay for it.
This may make a few of you mad, but well, you aren't here, and I am. Fair is Fair. Sorry just mad tonight, and sick of it.
February 8, 2002
A friend of mine told me not to publish that last entry. So I tell my friend, stay out of this. This has been one nasty year. Wife leaves, America Changes, and the other day I get a mandatory transfer to Houseboats. The Houseboats thing is cool actually, but the rest is just history. Things have been good, all in all this year, and, well, I have changed, as we all do sometimes. It has been a year since, uhhhh, what's her name left. Best thing that ever happened. I can breathe now, I can live now, and I'm not broke now. Sadly this is written to her, amazingly, I am a person, that can eat walk and talk on their own. I gave this whole thing a year to clear up, and it hasn't, so be it. I will take the appropriate action myself, to become single and break the restraints on my life.
"I Yam what I yam" and damned proud of it.
February 18, 2002
I've been kinda quiet this month. There's a lot going on, and the net isn't always te place to talk about it. On the other hand this place isn't a place to talk about it either. If I sneeze here it turns into the plague, if I laugh, it's an alien thing. The best joke I've ever been in. The funny thing is I've complained for months about it and I'm still here, what's with that. There is one person out there, just one, who I trust.
March 4, 2002
Well, I've settled into my new job here and like it. It's harder than the other job, and climbing that age ladder everyday reminds me, I'm not a kid anymore. So when I get home at night I'm sore, but what the hell, I can still get the work done. Summers approaching fast and the tempertures are warming up everyday. I can't wait till we actually get on the docks and start the season. Went to a campfire at the bosses last night and it was fun. If i might make a suggestion though, let drop work talk at the parties and have some fun. Life to short to spend 24-7 on the job. Ok gotta go out and meet the aliens now, LOL. (Private Joke)
March 8, 2002
Interested in a recent viewer in here. That old IP from a year ago. Hopefully, soon the bus will be sold and I'll be where I belong. Things aren't always as they appear in the beginning, and things and people change. Ya gotta see it from my viewpoint. Ok, I'm out here in the desert and, well I'm used to people around me, that care, and you can connect with. Like a friend said, this is a dysfunctional family, and I'm the lost stepchild. Ok, ya don't want to hear this, but it's just my journal. My final statement tonight. I have a hard time giving the best when I get so little in return. It's not balanced, and not good for the business. We work hard and are treated well behind the scenes, but, In my opinion, are just objects and pieces in the game. Me, I wanna be the one who makes a difference. When nothing you do is right then what's the point. I've learned alot over the years, but it never is taken with repect. Without respect from your fellow workers you have nothing. I'm going to give up trying to do the best job I can here, there is no point, it will still be wrong. You guys are a family and that is great, I just never was accepted. Just today's thought. The days of old are gone, and the dawn of a new day is near.
March 15, 2002
Smiles, to all of you. I think life is what you make of it, and the past two weeks I've been trying very hard. It is paying off. In all my years I heven't seen as tight a crew as the one I work with. We have our differences from time to time, but, were gettin' it done. There's a place I want to be and it will happen, if I'm patient. I shouldn't take it out on these people, sorry. I'm glad to be part of the crew.
Thanks for havin me.
To Sam, Pablo, Junior, Ralph, Randi, Thelma, Maria, Doug, Steve, Cindi, and Kirk.
The houseboat crew.
March 31, 2002
Easter Sunday
Well guess what I had fun today.
And if ya think I was reckless (My Job people) Then so be it. Geez let me have some fun, ok. You have your fun with me, LOL. Gonna do a contest called, What Next.
April 1, 2002
Get well Lance
April 9, 2002
Na I'm gonna keep talkin'. A friend of mine, Mitch, told me tonight is wife is now gone in 911. He has two girls, ages, 4 ad 6, and I know it's going to hard on him. Tonight I'm looking back on things, and happy, I am who I am. I may live in a dream on the internet but tonight I feel for his loss.
April 16, 2002
Gonna speak out tonight, as usual. A few things have crossed my mind today. First of all I want to Thank Pablo for giving me a bit of room today. The wind storm last night kinda did me in. It wasn't anybodies fault, just, God and Nature, having a fun day with us. Ok everything is back to what I would call normal, and $800.00 later things are ok.
My real complaint tonight is the news. Ok the Catholic Church, is now protecting perverts. Geez where are we going. God isn't a little boy and I don't think you pleased him. The Post office installed 3 Million in Solar panels, to save 10% of their operating cost, on one building, figure the payback on that one. Sorry forgot they are raising the rates, Sorry. Hentai graphics is not considered child porn, but it is allowed to display, obviously, and graphically, young people having violent sex. Finally Microsoft get away with writing garbage software, and the federal people let them slide, and stay a monopoly
See the news media just sensates us with speculation. At the bottom of this page out are rights as Americans, to freedom of speech, so I can't blame them, but what they are doing is speculating. How many times have you heard "From a unspecified source, we have just recieved the following information?" If it's that important, I would think the source should be verified to the public.
Remember It's out country, our constitution, and our right to know every detail.
So as tax day has passed, think about what your forced contribution has accomplished
Just a thought
Besides the repairs and the money going out I had a great day!!!!
Hi Beth
April 19, 2002
Here's food for thought to all of you that know me. It has been brought to my attention, that some content on this site has been viewed by unauthorized people. This unauthorized content may be in the form of test pages that are not visible to the public or pages that are tested here for other sites. greatesc.com was established right after windows 95 came out and has been here a long time. I have many personal sites and many sites that I administer. Roboting this site or using special software to view unauthorized content will not be tolerated. The search engine is provided for you to help you find the content in here you are looking for.
I have noticed an increase in sexually explicit keywords and nebulous htm searches that is beginning to alarm me. This site is here for your enjoyment. If there is something you want, ask me.
My intentions in the future are still uncertain. I have no girlfriends, I have no plans to move, or go anywhere. I like this lake, I like my job, and I like where I'm at in life. OK?
Remember I am not an piece in this chess game, I am the board. So all in all I think I'm going to turn off this machine for a few days and go to Vegas.
Enough said
April 21, 2002
Now let me say this. Truth and honesty are the most important thing in any relationship, whether it may be Husband and Wife, Boyfriend and girlfriend, or Amongst coworkers. A storm is brewing in the desert, and I can feel the hot air blowing. You all just can't stop. The pen is mightier than the sword, and the internet is beyond your comprehension.
Trust Me.
LOL never mind, probably just a rumor
April 23, 2002
Quick Note. Not everything on the road is, as it appears. I learned that tonight. So before I make a blithering idiot of myself, goodnight. Hey Willie, Thanks for the training on the helm today. That was important to me! "S"
April 24, 2002
I may be losing a very good friend tonight. I feel that there was so much I could have done, and I didn't. She decided that it was time to leave us. I don't know much yet and I'm not going to go into this, other than I would like all of you to say a prayer or whatever you can do to make her feel better. Friends are in short supply these days and I don't want to lose anymore.
Think of Betsy tonight, and do what you can emotionally to give her a little boost. For me I'm going to go out for a walk, and think about this. I spend so much time working on this site I may be forgetting life, and the people I meet here. What a travesty that is. I have failed, if I just knew, I'm so sorry.
9:48
I got to say one more thing. You know, I get laughed at a bit here, because of the net. In all honesty, my net friends mean a lot to me. It may not seem real to all of you here, but it is as real as it can get. I screwed up and didn't help when I could, or should have. The next time somebody tells me that my net friends are imaginary, don't go there. These people are real and maybe more so than you. Where are you tonight when I need a friend. It's a great job and a nice place but the loneliest place I have ever been.
Goodnight.
April 26, 2002
Yeah, weathers great. The winds are still here a bit as spring moves along, and the summer we all have been waiting for arrives. It not easy to say this, but I've been a bit rough on this place. I won't admit to being wrong, but then we all have to find our nitch, that little spot we are comfortable with. Well it took me a long time, and with a little help from my friends, I feel comfortable. It took a long time, but one thing I've learned is good things never come easy. Good things are impossible, but I will try again. So to Sam, Pablo, and Willie, I will do the best I can. I will fall short and that is human, but I will try, and that's the best I can do.
Here's too a great summer, and thanks for putting up with me.
April 30, 2002
Interesting, first place I have ever worked that didn't send a birthday card, hmmmmm. Oh well Human Resources must have been busy, oh well.
May 1, 2002
Hooray Hooray, the first of May. Yeah Right. Gonna say a few things tonight that might upset some people, and too the few that understand this, thankyou. I got home today from work, which was busy, but interesting, and ever changing, to find that I got another virus in my email. Ok here comes another reload, my McAffee, didn't catch it so, there we are. I'll reload this computer one of these days, but not sure when. I bought the new Madden football game and I may complete a season playing the game before I go online again. This event has brought one thing to my attention. I have not been on a date In 14 months. I have lived by this computer, and my net friends for that same period of time. I need to get out. The internet has given me dreams, that never culminate. I will post photos, and adventures, but beyond that I'll be gone.
If you wish to E Mail me please do not use greatesc@hotmail.com I am shutting down this E Mail as it is nothing but a legalized spamming service. my actual mail is
webmaster@greatesc.com, and I will check it occasionally.
Now I'm going to have a nice dinner. I gave my kitties some catnip, and they are hanging from the ceiling, glassy eyed. I am now going out tonight.
My feelings about real life haven't changed, the internet has just let them out for a bit of fresh air.
C Ya
May 6, 2002
Hi Terra, uh Tara, sorry
This is what it is all about. Summers here and it's time to concentrate. The work is number 1 right now. We have this great party this weekend, and your all invited. Anyways, that why I haven't been around. Summers here, and it's about time. This lake is why I'm here. Hope to see you this week and for those that can't be here, Hugggggggs
May 7, 2002
There are aways choices in life. As far as reality goes I have made my choice and I'm going to stick with it. When we all look back at what we've done, fun should be an important word. It's time. Let me get this week done, and I'll tell ya what I'm going to do. Sometimes it's hard when you are alone, to make those big decisions, but I'm going too anyways.
Too all my friends tonight thanks for the support.
May 8, 2002
I have made my decision, and I'm Leaving here Saturday or Sunday. I'm going on to bigger and better things, and to a place I want to be. I will be ofline for an indefinite amount of time, and the site may not change for a bit.
I want to say a few things.
Steve and Cindi---We will always be friends
Sam---Thanks for the days on the lake and I hope there are no hard feelings
Mel--- I Say goodbye to you as a friend
Pablo--- It has been a pleasure working with you.
Too My Fellow Employees--- I wish you the best you can have in life.
As for me, I need a bit more. I have learned a lot here and will remember these experiences but I will not look back and remember them as the best winter I have ever had. I will just remember. Take care and be safe.
Goodbye
May 11, 2002
One the road in the morning. The only thing I will say tonight is as I make my turn out of here I will look in the rear view mirrors and smile. Sam, Thank you, and I will know when I leave that I've done a good job. And If things ever get boring for you and there is no one to have fun with I would love to work with you again. Thanks for the great send off. I will always remember this place as a great learning experience and have a great summer.
May 30, 2002
Hi everybody. I'm finally online, kinda, and doing well here in Arizona. My online time will be limited until I can get a better internet connection, which may be a while. The trip went well and things are going great with the new job.
I'll be posting more in the next few days
June 2, 2002
Everything is going great here. The weekends have been very busy but it is summer, and I expect the hectic days. It's been very hot here which makes te days a bit longer. I,m hoping to have my new satellite internet system installed soon, 5 minutes a day online isn't gettin' it. KK, talk to ya later.
August 20, 2002
I think it was May 14, 2002 I set off on a journey, which was to be a great new start for me. I headed to canyon lake, Arizona, with great dreams. I arrived and after hassling with them a bit was taken to my site, as promised. The few pictures that I have posted was what I came here for.
I moved into my office, and soon found out that my 2 week internet target would never happen. My computer sat in that office, and i was not allowed in the office after hours. I checked mail once every week, with someone always watching me. there is one phone line here that was monitored constantly. I had no communication at all in private.
Mean while my boat was at Echo Bay. I tried to get someone to help me get the boat, but it seems like every time a day off came around they needed me to work. Needless to say, the people that were storing the boat got tired of it in their yard and now it's gone. I'm not going to deal with loyalties here, just what has happened. It turns out my promised mooring here was a lie, and I would have had no place to put the boat anyways.
The managers at that point left, much to our happiness, and we were left without managers. Oh my, no one to run the show, lol. From that point on, we have had corporate babysitters on property. This has been a nightmare. No one can make a real decision so we ramble around every few weeks with new ideas.
Ok, so now I have no boat, no internet, and nothing to do here. Ok, so when the old managers "left" I was told my computer can't be in the office anymore. Ok Thanks, again. So I disappeared again in June.
Well, it gets better. Now I'm told that I have to move from the grassy site to a site next to the sewage plant, and a site that has bad power. ok I'm stupid and move there. No power is correct and my AC fails and my fridge, and other things. they don't even care. Gee they say, maybe you should move off property! I do and they give me a small compensation for paying rent now which was part of my contract with them.
My computers have suffered, my cats have suffered from extreme heat, and you have cost me a lot of money. It's time for a change. Nobody got ahead by sitting on their behind.
August 20, 2001
Ok, My final talk about this, and this area. I've been told to think out of the box, so I will tonight.
I've learned a lot here, and it's time to go. Why? Just because I can! One thing I have to say is that, I have had fun, and have learned what it is like in the real world again. Some of these lessons have been rather harsh, but that is how you learn. Remember, I'm am still rather naive.
Since I've been off the net, I have been reminded what real interaction with people is like. Unfortunately, the real world is a place of lessons, kinda like school, and I'm not paying attention. On the other hand I've been able to do things that I haven't done in years, so it's all good.
So to the company I work for, you need some training (A Lot)
To the girls I'm with, you need hearts. Especially you Sue, never tell people you own me.
To the net, I'm out and around, but not online. (There is one exception)
And to past friends, never mind, I miss my boat.
So I'm thinking outside the box tonight. Anybody have any ideas? I've run out.
August 22, 2002
Hi Everybody. I know I know, "Where have you been?" I guess I could say the gates of hell, but I won't. I've just been offline for two months, due to a company handing out a pack of lies.
Hmmmmm, but on the other hand I got away from the computer. Ok, so here I am single and finally in the real world. As nature has it, I have met a few nice ladies. So I have been having a fun time. The point of this posting, you may find funny and interesting. I got up to go to work this morning, and noticed a small plastic bag with a few stuffed animals in it, on one of my lawn chairs. After a short investigation I also found a box of personal items and a duffle bag full of clothes and shoes, etc... The funny thing is I have no clue as to who they belong to. Is this short term storage or a roommate? Ya got me, LOL. I'll keep ya posted on this one.
Yes life as usual is very unusual and I wouldn't have it any other way. In short I'm back, not as often, but back.
I'll talk to ya later, as I wait for this mystery to unfold.
August 23, 2002
Well, the mystery clothes are still here, and not a sign of an owner. Chance and Pam came over to see if they recognized anything, to no avail. This is really bazaar and I guess I'll just have to wait and see. The job is the same, and I guess the only reason I haven't left there is the fact that this place is so entertaining I can't bear to part with the laughter. 100+ degrees is getting old these days. OK, I think I'm gonna go for a walk, as I await the answer to this new puzzle, LOL.
Yes Justa, I could write a book, Hmmmm I think I actually am in here.
August 25, 2002
Sorry can't talk tonight, have to go to a jerksannon meeting. LOL. Sigh Arizona Sucks, If God created Woman, He made special ones for here, then they ruled purgatory, well that's where I ended up. For once I will agree with the cats. LOL, A new song, Purgatory Women from AZ. Let me work on that.
December 17, 2002
Finally the ordeal is over. I moved to New York to be with Susan. The bus has been sold and there will be much news in the future. greatesc.com will survive so stay in touch and I'll explain all of this. Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to all.
Kel
Till next time
Kelley
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